For all intents and purposes, the summer period has reached its conclusion. Now, as the days get shorter once again, I sit here and wonder what life has in store for me over the coming months.
At the end of September I celebrate 21 years on this plane of existence. At Halloween/Samhain I celebrate one year since I consecrated myself to the god and goddess, although I have in fact been practising Wicca for 6 or 7 years.
Anything missing? Well…in a few days I would have celebrated 3 years with my beautiful partner, only we broke up at the beginning of June. She kept hope that it was just a passing moment and we would get back together within a week, but honestly I didn’t (and still don’t) think we could manage another year the way we were this last year.
It’s all well and good when you live in the same place or can see each other at least every few weeks, but this was essentially a Skype-relationship for more than 6 months a year, with all the extra bickering and frustrations that come with a long-distance relationship like this one was.
(This will almost certainly be the last you’ll read about my relationship with this girl, so bear with me just once more.)
I hoped last week that she’d be pleased to hear from me and how my exam retakes we going, but last night as we chatted on Facebook I realised that I’m over our relationship – ready to move on and allow us to become friends, while she isn’t by any stretch of the imagination.
What I have decided is that whenever she is ready to talk to me again, I’ll be a friend to her. Until then there can be nothing between us.
Being able to put the past behind you and live your life again with a serene mindset; that’s the feeling I took away last night. An ending.
The realisation I’d essentially been holding my breath for almost 3 months. I thought I was over her at least a month ago, but now I realise that I’m only truly over her and our relationship as of this day.
The Universe teaches us something every day.
I’m glad I still have much to learn and gain from It.
Blessings to all on your ongoing journeys in Life!